Wednesday, December 06, 2000

What should I be doing right now? (Hint: Blogging is certainly not the right answer.) If I paid any heed to my physical and emotional needs (hey, that rhymes), I would be sleeping. Many people don't seem to realize:
sleep is so important. I've read that being sleep deprived on a regular basis is worse for your health than smoking. Should I feel like a hypocrite for not smoking for health reasons, while I get a good night's sleep only once in a blue moon and don't show signs of changing my behavior? I, for one, do not get nearly enough sleep.
I am not an insomniac, like many people I know. Au contraire: At almost any moment of the day, even after a large cup of coffee, I can fall asleep within minutes when given the chance. I think my problem is soley psychological. I don't understand it, myself. If I did, I think the problem would cease to exist. I can propose a few hypotheses of mine, but I think only know only a small part of the picture. First, I think I'm too busy. I always have so much to do, and so little time in which to do it, that sleeping away eight hours of the day would be wasteful. So instead, I stay up nights, thinking about all I should be doing, and never doing any of it. Second, procrastination is a big issue. When I have a lot of work to do, there are nights when I don't even start it until some unearthly hour. Then, when I look back on all the daylight hours I had to do it, I feel ridiculous. Unfortunately, I don't learn from my stupidity and the cycle just repeats itself.
Despite the "Certifiably Insane: Official License" I carry everywhere with me, I'd say I'm pretty mentally sound. (Well... mentally sound for a teenage girl -- whatever that means.) This is just one of those things. If I ever seek professional help about anything, I think it will be this.
I am so tired right now.
I'm going to go to sleep.
(Good idea? Yes, thank you.)

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