|
|
|
Fire & Ice
|
|
Politics, culture, and other oddities.
|
|
Tuesday, November 28, 2000
I promised myself I would not use this blog to whine about how bored I am, but I'd honestly just like to muse for a moment on the idea of monotony. My life is pretty monotonous. What do I do? I go to school, I talk to people, I pursue some of the things I'm interested in, I blog. Nothing too earth-shattering there. Yet I am certainly not unhappy; why does monotony have such a foul connotation? I think I stay happy because what goes on inside my head, and the heads of those I talk to, is constantly changing, constantly observing and evaluating and concluding. I am very aware of my environment; I am very sure to surround myself with interesting people whenever I can. So where is the root of monotony then? Just because my life is not a soap opera does not mean I have nothing to talk about, or nothing to think about. In fact, I'd argue that I think too much. That's not to try to present myself as some intensely cerebral being (I'm not even sure how to spell cerebral, much less act it), au contraire, mes amis. Not to be self-loathing or anything, but usually the things I think about are silly, inconsequential, or painfully self-involved. I have my moments when I ponder world peace, human rights, the state of democracy, human nature, topology, and yes, even chads, but these moments hardly encompass the full spectrum of my thinking. Still, I am bored. I am bored not in an intellectual sense -- the people I talk to and the things I learn keep me quite mentally stimulated -- but merely in the lack of monumental goings-on in my life. But, what I finally realized is that nobody's life is full of monumental goings-on. Everyone has periods when "stuff happens" and times when "stuff doesn't." (Ah, my profound conclusion of the day.) So. I think that rather than intellectually dissecting and overanalyzing my life and its lack of happenings, I will try to appreciate more my luck and contentedness. Life's good, and nobody, especially me, has the right to take such a blessing for granted.
|
|
|